Love this movie,

Pensive

Im a GLEEK.

I've Never

I've never been considered "smart" amongst the people i know. people see me as the joker or the friend to hang around when you have no one else. ive always been friends with people smarted than me. people that are going places and doing things with their lives while i just sit there all alone and watch those people living their lives. i want to be smart, im tired of feeling stupid in everything i do. i cried tonight over my stats homework. i got to the second question and just got so pissed at myself and started to cry. i feel pathetic. it sucks because its not like im not paying attention and im slacking off, im really really trying and i still dont get it. what makes me even more mad is the people that do slack off and dont pay attention in class or whatever and get everything the first time it is explained. i have a stats test tomorrow and i have a nagging feeling im going to fail. im tired of being a failure. i got a B on my last stats test and my mom was thrilled. i hate seeing her when i dont do good. i hate it because i want her to know im trying and to see im improving but as hard as i try it never seems to make a difference. im so frustrated.

Tennage Dream,

You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back


i hope im lucky enough to find someone that makes me feel like this one day<3

#12 Fall in love

The dog days are over,

i find it quite annoying how ignorant some people can be. whether its cutting someone off(thanks for that by the way you are so super cool i want to be just like you..not.) or cutting someone completely off for no good reason. keep in mine that yes i too have cut people off and and not told them why, but not for no good reason. there is a method to my madness, most of the time and i just want to stay away from the drama. so i guess a thank you is in order. thank you person i have known for 3 years who has recently cut me off for no good reason. thank you because now i dont have to listen to you all the time, i dont have to constantly listen to all your drama and lies and feel as though none of my concerns matter. because of you annonymous person, i am drama free and i dont have to deal with anymore of your B.S.

as for you cool person who cut me off..nice hair. ha. i have so much hate towards you and your...turqois haired "friend" that it seriously baffles me. i find you to be the most ignorant and newly concieted person i have ever met. congrats to you and your narcissism, i hope its worth everything.