things are getting better..kind of. still looking for a job that wont make me want to jump off a cliff everyday but im trying to be optomistic about it. optomists live longer than pessimists anyways. still have my bad days but im trying to stay postive about things. i just have to keep thinking job job job. it seems that a job is going to make of break my life right now. i need this job because christmas is coming up and i have my eye on a few things for brookie and my mom. i need this job to help my mom out. i need this job to help pay for school and the pricey books that come wit it..which i will be renting..i need this job so i can drive my car and motivate my mother to finally fix hers or get a new one! i need this job to save up for edc this year which i brutally want to go to, at this point id sell a kidney just to go..that might be a little illegal though, hmm another reason i need to job! so my kidnies can stay in tact:) and lastly i need this job to save up for my own apartment that i plan to live in with brooklyn. its not that im so desperate to move away from my mother...well on her bad days it is...but its mostly because i finally want to be able to rely on myself. not have to ask my mother for permission or answer to anyone, decorate with green paint and rug leaves, i want to be more indendent for once in my life. i feel like im an extremely independent person..with some things..and i need to finally take care of myself and get on with my life. seems to be going by so quickly and i just want to make the most of it while i still can.
song obsessions of the week:)
some feel good music for my new optomistic look on things
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