Sad Movie, Sad Memories

I just saw the movie The Lovely Bones. i thought it was really good. Saoirse Ronan, who plays susie is amazing in this movie. there is a point where she screams and i just wanted to cry...i did a little. but my mother was there with me so i held it together. i wanted to see the movie really badly because i read the book and is was really good but the movie left out a lot of critical points in the movie. Like the fact that susies mother left them after her death for the dectective and never to return. stuff like that. i felt bad making my mother watch it. it didnt really click for me until it was half way over but i felt pretty awful. i felt awful because when my mother was aroundmy age she lost her brother. he was an amazing person, so i hear. ive never heard anyone that has anything bad to say of him. i wish i could have met him. my mother is my only family so shes the only one that talks of him really. but from what she has told me he was the most amazing person alive. he drowned. my mother started crying half way through the movie. i think she was thinking about what she would do if she lost me. the other day she told me of how she wanted to leave. she wanted to be taken to the mountains and have me spread the ashes. while she talked i couldnt help but tune her out and start to think of what it would be like to lose her. i couldnt imagine it. as many times as we have screamed and yelled at each other i cant imagine losing her. i am now trying to live every day as if it were my last and trying my hardest to remember not to take anything for granted, especially the ones you love.